Sweat It Out

I've been awfully lazy about working out this past couple of months. Fine. Make it this past couple of years. Hehe.

Wanted to go for a jog but it was raining and I was feeling too lazy to haul my fat ass to the gym. So eventually I settled on a couple of simple exercises that I did at home.

Sit ups, push ups, squats- the usual. Finished up my little workout with some stretching and now I'm waiting to stop perspiring so that I can take a much needed shower.

Feels good to get this creaky body of mine moving though. My sweat glands haven't been used in way too long and now they seem to be on overdrive.

Need to be more disciplined about exercising! I know I say it every year, and each time this is one of my greatest struggles. Pfft.

Oh well. Baby steps, I say. Think I'll pack my gym attire and head on to the gym tomorrow before meeting the Alligator for dinner.

Reflections

It's hard to imagine that another year / 12 months / 365 (ok 362) days have passed. So many things have happened. My life turned upside down in such a short span of time.

As everyone already knows, the most significant thing that happened to me in 2008 was that my marriage ended. Of all the ups and downs, this was the one incident that shook me up the most.

The man that I thought I'd be spending the rest of my life with turned out to be someone I now realise I never really knew all that well. The family that took me in as one of their own, has now become a part of my past and not future. The life I had envisioned, and made sacrifices for, all gone.

I accept what has happened, and I know and understand why things fell apart. But while I'm surely and steadily moving on with my life, coming to terms with the situation, making changes in my life that can only be for the better, I wonder how this experience has changed me.

For one, I now truly understand what it means to have the unconditional love and support of your family. My parents and sister have been wonderfully supportive and kind, giving me advice when asked, and space when I needed to be alone. My relatives have been very considerate, accepting the situation without drilling me on the details.

Friends have been great, with a few of them already lining up potential dates for 2009. Lol. I've cast aside the anti-social streak that plagued me for most part of 2008, and met up with more people in the past 2 months than I have in the rest of the year. (Of course it helps that I'm no longer living in the boondocks.)

I'm still not sure what my outlook on life and love is now though. I've definitely become a little bit more skeptical, looking at my peers who are happily getting married and settling down and wondering to myself how long it'll be before they split.

But I'd like to think that all this will pass. I'd like to think that one day I'll believe that it is possible to have a 'happily ever after', that marriages that last a lifetime are not just a thing of my parents' generation.

Right now, I'm not in any rush to jump into any relationships. (I'm not even legally divorced anyways.) I don't even want to think much about 2009. But now I know what LGG meant when she said that she was content to just drift, to not have any plans, to live day by day.

Things are definitely looking up for 2009 though. Bring it on.

AAAARRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!

I was feeling pensive and was reflecting upon the past year and wrote a particularly long blog entry last night. Because it was so long, I got too tired to finish it and so decided to save it as a draft and go to bed.

Or so I thought. Apparently, I was too tired to save the draft properly because IT'S GONE. Argh!

Anyway, now I don't really feel like re-writing the entire thing and I can't even remember what much of my train of thought last night. *sigh*

Merry Christmas!

*burp*

Man, I'm stuffed. We had a gatherng at our place last night, and I ate so much. We didn't really have the typical Christmas dishes one would expect, but my mom made lasagne (always a winner), meatloaf (something she used to make a long long time ago) and the cousins brought roast duck and meats. There was also macaroni salad and lots of chocolate. Yummy.

My sis had bought the DVD for The Nightmare Before Christmas and we watched that last night, while everyone huddled together on the couch. It was such a cold night and it was the perfect weather for lazing in and watching TV. The family proved ourselves to be dysfunctional once again, when we actually educated my 9yo niece on the difference between wines and beers (and yes, we let her have a small glass).

No plans for today. Was supposed to go to a friend's place for Christmas lunch but by the time I finally woke up it was already 1.45pm so I stayed home and had leftovers. Downloaded the Twilight ebook and spent the last couple of hours reading it. Think I'll get back to reading hehe.

Anyway, Merry Christmas!

Rain, Rain, Come Again

It's raining and I don't feel like leaving the house. Hahaha.

So might as well blog.

Things I need to do:

1. Get Christmas presents. Haha. Yes, I know it's Christmas eve already but.. Ok, I have no excuses. I was just lazy.
2. Buy ingredients to bake cake for Christmas. I should have done this earlier but.. Ok, I have no excuses. I was just lazy.
3. Write blog post about reflections on 2008. Actually I've started the draft but.. Ok, I have no excuses. I was just lazy.

*changes topic*

I think I'll grab a cup of coffee later. Can barely keep my eyes open. Hehehe.

Blogging More

Ki says I should blog more. Ok.

 

Here you go.

 

Lol.

An Awesome Week

I must say that this has been a great week.

Watched Twilight with Yummy on Tuesday and I must say now I understand why she was gushing on and on about the show. Yes, LGG may mock us but 1. I want a vampire lover 2. I want a 'vegetarian' vampire family to accept me as one of their own and protect me from the evil vampires. Hehe.

Met Ki on Wednesday and watched Twilight again. It's been yonks since we last met, but some things just don't change. Don't know what it is about watching movies with her, but we always end up in giggling fits. Or rather, this time we were hur hur hur-ing away.

Grabbed a drink at TCC and chatted for the rest of the evening. Having read all of the books, she was able to fill in some of the gaps which made me understand certain bits of the movie better.

Then I had dinner with Paul today and the last time we met was, ironically, at my wedding. Lucky he didn't demand his ang pao back. Lol. Had a really insightful chat about relationships and marriage.

One of the best things about meeting friends who have known you from your school days is that they know the real you. The person not yet jaded by life's disappointments. The person who is filled with ambition and hope for the future.

Have a BBQ tomorrow with the Planet Zork alumni. Yaay! Better go to bed then.