I keep scrolling down my gchat list, hoping to catch his name online. I keep refreshing my Whatsapp application, hoping that he will send a message. But I know it will never happen, after all, I deleted him from everything and asked him not to contact me again.
I want to send an email telling him that everything will be OK, that we will work things out, that this is just a phase. I want to remind him of all the good times that we have had, of all the holidays we were planning to go, of all the things we had in store for us. My mouse hovers over the "Add as Friend" button on Facebook, wanting him back in my life, even if it's only online.
Stupid astrologer. Fucking naadi reader. I HATE YOU BOTH.